My 8 Biggest Fears

I guess this is a small list of what I dislike/fear. It's not a complete list and I don't think it's in such a good order.

8. Heights - This is a weird one to be slightly afraid of as I use to live in Singapore. Here's a little geography for you people, Singapore is an island, meaning that its total area is like twice the size of Tallahassee. Now imagine stuffing 4 million people into that area and you get the idea. The height of those apartments are huge and I once lived on the top floor for a few years. Yet sometimes I still get chills when I get too high...

7. Bugs - I hate bugs. I just do. Bugs deserve to die if they cross my way. Bugs should disappear when I come into the room because all I'm going to do is to squish them. Or maybe hit them with a tupperware lid... Anyways, I have a fear of bugs. This is somewhat strange too, as I vividly remember that I, in kindergarten, grabbed a roach and played with it in my hands. I guess I was a lot braver with bugs earlier.


6. Strangers/Unknown - This fear recently has been declining in power. Speaking to strangers used to be somewhat strange and a bit of a nerve-wracking experience. Still, I guess I've been talking to strangers more and more and now I don't mind strangers that much...

5. Messing up - I perform several activities right now and I always have the pressure on me to perform. Sometimes I get the feeling that my world will end if I don't do well enough (don't take this sign as saying I'm suicidal, I'm not). Before high-stakes competition of any types, I always have this cold chill run up my spine before I step into the room.


4. 1984 - The idea of no privacy scares me. While reading 1984, I was terrified of the events actually happening in real life. I mean, who would want to live in a world where your thoughts are monitored and individual lives are worth nothing. Privacy is one of the most personal things you could ever have, and yet you can't buy it or trade it. Now it gets taken away...

3. Suffering - Being the average teenager that I am, I watched a lot of violent movies. Sitting through all those movies gave me a fear of torture and suffering. The idea of living through torture terrifies me. Likewise, being in a vegetative state scares me too. Not moving, unable to respond and losing the connection with the world is probably one of the worst thing a human can go through.

2. Choices - Making choices is hard. I always say to myself: "What if I made this choice and suddenly the world comes to an end if I accidentally disrupted the space-time continuum? Or maybe if I'm at one of my choices, and I missed a great opportunity at my other choice..." As you can see, its pretty hard for me to make choices, especially hard ones.


Imagine me in one of those movie situations where you have a choice of telling the truth or dying... except the person never chooses as he/she usually manage to escape.

1. Death - I don't like the idea of dying. I don't think I need to elaborate on why I fear death... I have plans for the future and wish to accomplish them.

-runiteking1

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